Memori Ilusi

6 April 2013, 10.28 pm

i

"Naik bas dari sana pukul berapa?"
"As balik ESOK la. 4.30 petang."

Dah hantar mesej minggu lepas.
kata balik hari Ahad.
tapi hari ni masih hari Sabtu.

Kesian si ibu menanti kepulangan anak tercinta. T_T


ii

Pagi

"Malam ni, nak habiskan novel Fatimah Syarha.
Ada 700++ muka lagi."


Tengah hari

"Esok kita buat presentation ye! Pukul 9!"

Alahai.. Baru nak rehat malam ni..


iii

"Nak sewa kamera boleh?"

S E W A ! ! !

"Boleh je!!!! (Asalkan duit masuk!!)"

^^

Beberapa hari kemudian...

"Sorry ye.. Lupa nak bawak ke UTM tadi. Balik bila ye?"
"Eh.. takpe takpe.. Saya balik Ahad.."

Memang dah takdir balik lambat. Allah sebaik-baik perancang.

"Ok la. Abang bagi Sabtu ye."

Hari Sabtu

"Berapa ye?"
"Tak kisah pun..."

Tangannya membuka zip beg dan not ringgit Malaysia dihulur.

"WHOA!!!!!!"

Dua hari je pun. Tapi sewa macam satu sem.
Tak kisah. Orang dah bagi, jangan complain "Apesal banyak sangat"
Bersyukur kepada Yang Maha Memberi, bukan yang memberi.
Dan tolong jangan mengungkit mintak dipangkah.

Anyway, merasa jugaklah Nikon D3100 ni travel oversea.

iv

"Dah agak dah mesti balik esok ni. Ada kelas kan pagi Jumaat."
"Tu lah. Ingat nak ponteng. Kalau tak, malam ni aku dah takde kat bilik."
"Saya dah habis kuliah hari ni. Kalau tak sebab kelas Sabtu Ahad, petang tadi dah cabut."

"Ingat nak stay je kat UTM. Tiket dah beli, tapi tak tau nak balikm ke tak. Nak buat PSM"
"Balik je. Takdenya cuti nak masuk makmal"

Betul jugak.

"Jumpa dua minggu lagi!"

Saya menyusur koridor gelap.
Dan berbisik perlahan,
"InsyaAllah"

v

I need to see you next week, on weekdays.
In KL.
Urgent + Important.
~nc~

2 April 2013, 11.00 pm

Semester ni memang ada 'kelainan'.
Sejak awal semester, saya menyisihkan diri daripada kenalan.
Jauh daripada sahabat sefakulti, sekelas, se-kolej kediaman.
Langsung tak gatal jari pergi mesej seorang demi seorang.
Facebook pun terbiar tanpa sebaraang status update.

Dua bulan tanpa apa-apa berita.

Ada beberapa insan yang perasan tentang kebisuan ni.


"Lama senyap. Marah akak ke?"

Saya kaku dan bisu.
Tak tahu nak reply apa.

24 March 2013, 10.39 pm

There'll be THREE tests (yes, three) this week for three consecutive days - starting from Tuesday.
So I don't think I'll update this blog for a moment.
(For the sake of the test. Haha)

For the first two papers, I think I can handle them, 'cuz i've started my revision since last four weeks.
(I always study four weeks earlier before test. I know I'm weird.)
The third paper, I think, the toughest for this semester. (insyaAllah my final semester)
Newton-Rhapson. Gauss-Seidel. Just like Numerical method, but it is a subject for Electrical Power.

Anyway, good luck for those taking the tests and exam.
And congratulations for those who scored for SPM and STPM.
For those who don't, just remember that written exam grades are just tiny little pieces of our life.
And nobody bothers after few years later.

SPM, STPM and other exams are just what we did few months ago.
It is today that matters, which reflects your true self.

May Allah bless.

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19 January 2013, 6.21 pm

seeking forgiveness is never an overridden
as He wants us to read and learn
that nothing's late before the point of no return
~nc~

from Him that I came
to Him I will be returned

18th March 2013, 12.37 am